Was reading my last post not long ago, surprised to see that the last entry was actually dated back to july 2009!!! LMAO, that prove that either i am really BZ or i am just plain LAZY...
(BUSY VS LAZY) Pick one,guys...
Finally, the count down has begun....
33 more days till i can touch my precious again... MY PINK IC!!!
After seeing so many of my friends "expired" one by one, and out of the sudden, i realised that i am on top of the EXPIRED list. Wohoo...time flies, how true! But leaving the force will be another hard thing for me, all the friendships, all the brotherhood, all the "Bayonet" incident.. they will just add another beautiful page to my life journal.
Things which cant bring you down will only make u come back stronger.

7:09 pm
im alone; im emo;

things happened when nobody can stop it from happening, thing such as l-o-v-e!!

sigh...just read from someone blog then discover that she just cant get over him yet, m i just a replacement?? or i m just a stop that she can rely on when she fall??? me, myself too. wanna know the ans, but are afraid to know it at the same time. what if she say: "i am still so in luv with him till now" or worse still "we had gotten back tgt" gees..mayb i m just not fortunate enough to desire for all these.

higher hope = bigger disappointment when fail = Lower mood = EMO

Maybe just mayb i gt the talent in creating new mathematical formula... haiz sianzation

9:52 pm
im alone; im emo;

time now 0155hrs...cant get to sleep...things kept running thru my head at this very moment...just cant get her off my mind...worrying over her condition...will she get better tomorrow??? i dunno...might as well leave that to the one above to decide for her...

have i make a big mistake to say that to her????...will that cause a strain in our relationship???...Argh...cant take it anymore..just hope that i can really give myself a break on this...easiler say than done...if everything can go so smoothly...then there will be no such thing call SUFFERING...hoho

looking at the four wall surrounding me right now...pic of her seem to emerge from every direction...is she sleeping now or is she being tortured by the pain that her back give her??? i just dun like the feeling of u being a friend but u cant do anything to make ur friend feel better...haiz i m such a useless friend...if only i can find ways to cheer her up and that will at least fulfil my role as her close friend...

knowing that she finally found her happiness...as a friend i m happy for her...but the other side of me seem to have this really sour feeling brewing up...is that jealousy??? or just because of plain guilt??? guilty of not treating her good enough when she was mine or other thing..i myself also cant give MYSELF a ans...just hope that he will really cherish her... Sigh

SO now i m telling myself...to go to bed(which i know i cant)..rest and prepare for a better tomorrow for myself and others....

1:45 am
im alone; im emo;

Lesson 1:
A man is getting into the shower just as his wife is finishing up her shower, when the doorbell rings. The wife quickly wraps herself in a towel and runs downstairs. When she opens the door, there stands Bob, the next-door neighbour. Before she says a word, Bob says, 'I'll give you $800 to drop that towel.' After thinking for a moment, the woman drops her towel and stands naked in front of Bob, after a few seconds, Bob hands her $800 and leaves. The woman wraps back up in the towel and goes back upstairs. When she gets to the bathroom, her husband asks, 'Who was that?' 'It was Bob the next door neighbour,' she replies. 'Great,' the husband says, 'did he say anything about the $800 he owes me?'

Moral of the story: If you share critical information pertaining to credit and risk with your shareholders in time, you may be in a position to prevent avoidable exposure.

Lesson 2:
A priest offered a Nun a lift. She got in and crossed her legs, forcing her gown to reveal a leg. The priest nearly had an accident. After controlling the car, he stealthily slid his hand up her leg. The nun said, 'Father, remember Psalm 129?' The priest removed his hand. But, changing gears, he let his hand slide up her leg again. The nun once again said, 'Father, remember Psalm 129?' The priest apologized 'Sorry sister but the flesh is weak.' Arriving at the convent, the nun sighed heavily and went on her way. On his arrival at the church, the priest rushed to look up Psalm 129. It said, 'Go forth and seek, further up, you will find glory.'

Moral of the story: If you are not well informed in your job, you might miss a great opportunity.

Lesson 3:
A sales rep, an administration clerk, and the manager are walking to lunch when they find an antique oil lamp. They rub it and a Genie comes out. The Genie says, 'I'll give each of you just one wish.' 'Me first! Me first!' says the admin clerk. 'I want to be in the Bahamas , driving a speedboat, without a care in the world.' Puff! She's gone. 'Me next! Me next!' says the sales rep. 'I want to be in Hawaii , relaxing on the beach with my personal masseuse, an endless supply of Pina Coladas and the love of my life.' Puff! He's gone. 'OK, you're up,' the Genie says to the manager. The manager says, 'I want those two back in the office after lunch.'

Moral of the story: Always let your boss have the first say.

Lesson 4 :
An eagle was sitting on a tree resting, doing nothing. A small rabbit saw the eagle and asked him, 'Can I also sit like you and do nothing?' The eagle answered: 'Sure, why not.' So, the rabbit sat on the ground below the eagle and rested. All of a sudden, a fox appeared, jumped on the rabbit and ate it.

Moral of the story: To be sitting and doing nothing, you must be sitting very, very high up.

Lesson 5 :
A turkey was chatting with a bull. 'I would love to be able to get to the top of that tree' sighed the turkey, 'but I haven't got the energy.' 'Well, why don't you nibble on some of my droppings?' replied the bull. They're packed with nutrients.' The turkey pecked at a lump of dung, and found it actually gave him enough strength to reach the lowest branch of the tree. The next day, after eating some more dung, he reached the second branch. Finally after a fourth night, the turkey was proudly perched at the top of the tree. He was promptly spotted by a farmer, who shot him out of the tree.

Moral of the story: Bull Shit might get you to the top, but it won't keep you there..

Lesson 6 :
A little bird was flying south for the winter. It was so cold the bird froze and fell to the ground into a large field. While he was lying there, a cow came by and dropped some dung on him. As the frozen bird lay there in the pile of cow dung, he began to realize how warm he was. The dung was actually thawing him out! He lay there all warm and happy, and soon began to sing for joy. A passing cat heard the bird singing and came to investigate. Following the sound, the cat discovered the bird under the pile of cow dung, and promptly dug him out and ate him.

Moral of the story: (1) Not everyone who shits on you is your enemy. (2) Not everyone who gets you out of shit is your friend. (3) And when you're in deep shit, it's best to keep your mouth shut!

i dunno whether this will help u guys out there...but hey juz take it for a laugh....and u will feel that all these does make some sense!!!!! PEACE

2:54 am
im alone; im emo;

duh duh duh.....finally finished my field camp....it was hell...imagine sleeping on the plot of land that had already been used by many many people...urine smell and the unique smell of ur bio-waste products filled ur nose almost instantly....kind of exciting right???



finally settle down on a piece of "Clean land"(well it look nice n clean to me)...started to build our mini tent that we will be living in it for the next 5 days....hahaz it might look small...but surprisingly it is spacious enough for me n my buddy...



sleeping was another challenge for all of us....sergeant will try to stun ur rifle....if they sucessfully stunned ur rifle...then well confinement will be the ultimate reward and u can jolly well kiss ur weekend bookout good bye...other then the "stunning" night...another threat will be the wild boar attack....the wild boar in tekong is freaking big...really big to the extend that u will mistook it for a MR BEAN old mini cooper....i m not jk...it really that big...once i had this close encounter with this big big wild boar while we are releasing our high tide....suddenly a heavy breathing can be heard...we turn arnd and saw this gigantic wild boar pulling one of our frenz field bag...and dragged out all the food frm it...and boy first impression we did were to observe the BIG thing infront of us...hahaz after his feasting on my frenz feild bag n all his combat ration...the gigantic mammal left...but wait it is not the end yet...after we dig finished our hole we were suppose to sleep in that hole...so called our "GRAVE"...i had another close contact with that mammal again...this time it was so near to me that i can even feel its breathing on my hands....hahaz write till now also very late liao...i will continue again if i had the time....

11:08 pm
im alone; im emo;

diaoz....sia lahz...me and my big mouth...go anyhow scold lao woman for nt updating her blog....then the reply came...



"y...u nvr update also"



damn....is like picking up a rock...instead of throwing it at ppl....i dropped it and smash my own leg...karma!!!! so now guai guai sit infront of my little lappie...and started to blog while chatting with the "culprit". eh...where shld i start...



argh...okae i will start off with the major events that took place within this few days...that keep me bz thus lazy to blog....



1)my beloved grandpa..had ended his suffering and went to a better place...a place that he will be able to look over us and give us his blessing....



2)Graduation ceremony of my diploma and officially...i ended my role as a student...



3)Change my fone coz it spoiled...(was thinking of tahan-ing till i go into NS...but frenz kb say i un-contactable so i go n get a new fone plus new line)



4)juz passed my 2oth birthday...no celebration no gift and no present...coz my gp passed away...



5)nth else to blog liao...but if i stop at 4 will be weird so i post till number 5



so all the above mentioned events all took place within a single week....u can imagine y i nvr update liao bahz....so i will try to eat snake here or there for the next few days...

so LAO WOMAN....TAKE NOTE AHZ....IN CASE UR EYE SIGHT NOT GOOD BCOZ OF UR AGING PROBLEM I PUT IT IN BLOCK....I MIGHT MIA FROM MY BLOG FOR THE NEXT FEW DAYS...REMEMBER AHZ...ME NOT U....SO U CONTINUE WITH UR DAILY BLOGGING.

muhahaz...during the grad ceremony...was sitting beside my most favourite galz in NYP ELAINE ...she is my best opps sex frenz in NYP "bahz"...hahaz no joke lahz....wah seh if she is not sitting beside me and entertain me with her lame-ness and blur-ness....think i will sleep thru the whole stupid ceremony le...was joking abt the VIP with her....here are some conversations i had with her...

E: wah lao...y izzit taking so long...my stomach drumming liao( true enough it did make some LOUD noise)
J:kao he spend more time talking to those pretty merit scorer sia
E:u sure anot....hey ya ahz...

On the stage,they are playing the video of their close up view with the VIP and the scorer...coz of the sian-ness we hab...so we try to impose a fake speech when their mouth move to self entertain us....

J:(imitating the VIP...which is a ang mo)Hey charbo...ni jing chio leh...ai zhuo peng you mai...(while the VIP is shaking their hand) you now single???attached????or wad???(immediatly ppl arnd us burst into laughter...coz think i say too loud liao)....

then elaine said this...."wahz who is this sia...i dunno him ahz"...wah seh u win liao lorz...pang seh me...hahaz u watch out ahz....then after that we manage to lame thru out the whole session...muhahaz....promise her that will contact her after i went for the shaving and my first book out frm NS...and ya...told lao woman will look for her too after i went in...dotz think sheforget liao...muhahaz so nvm....LOL yawn* so tired...think blog till here can liao...will continue on my next post de....tata~

12:46 am
im alone; im emo;

...on my previous post....i copy some no life being's scribbling onto my blog....then immediately ppl ask me.....

"wah who are u in love with"
"u gt gf liao ahz bastard"

dotz dotz dotz....i tot i already say it is some scribbling...okae mayb i nvr did mention properly....hahaz okae guy....i declare i m still single....wait a min....y m i sounding like i m promoting pork online sia....

siao liao lahz...really i mean it....ever since with that close contact with that MR LORRY BUANG...i gt a really bad feeling that bad luck or sway-ness or whatever u wanna call it is gonna stick with me for a very long time le....

Thus i m continuing naming all the sway thing i encounter today....

1)wanna withdraw money frm atm...then discover atm cannot withdraw cash anymore....(when the person b4 me still can stand beside me n count his money on his hand)
2)accidentally drive my foot onto the corner of the cupboard
3)wake up in semi conscious state n use facial scrub cream instead of toothpaste to brush my teeth(only manage to find out when i can feel the "sand" in my mouth)
4)Wanna scare some ppl...but end up letting ppl misunderstood it....(ps ahz lao woman)
5)broke my favorite foto frame to pieces....

ARGHHHHH.....when will all these sway-ness stop...i m still looking forward to the end of suffering...guan yi ma....Buddha...Jesus ...dua peh gong...tai shang lao jun....i pray to u all...please boh pi me faster get out of all these shit.....

1:09 am
im alone; im emo;